Christmas blues
12 December 2005, 9:03pm
I don’t know how others feel, but somehow, I think this year’s Christmas isn’t going to rank among my favorites. It’s almost mid-December–the big day is less than a couple of weeks away–and I still don’t feel Christmassy. I mean I’ve done some shopping, but I’m still way too far from being finished, and I’m not really panicking. In previous years, I’d be panicking even before December rolls in.
So, why the blues? Money, that’s one reason, or the lack thereof. Ok, so it’s not like I haven’t got any cent left. But somehow, I feel so poor this year, and I’ve never felt like this before. I’m not even halfway through getting presents for my family and friends, and I feel like my pocket is all drained. My fault really, but geez…I really need to do some serious budgeting this coming year. Hah! Let me see myself do that. That would be a miracle…:-D
The other reason I can’t really pinpoint. You know that feeling when you know there’s something bothering you only you can’t exactly figure out what. That feeling has been lingering for a while now, and it gets me p***sed off because I can’t figure it out. I mean I got it partly figured out, but not entirely, and I feel like the only way I’m going to ever feel better about it is when I do finally figure the whole thing out. Which is somewhat of a Catch-22 because to finally figure out the whole thing I gotta figure out entirely what’s bothering me. Oh what the heck…
Lest everyone think I’m all out of the Christmas spirit though, I did join some friends for a nice dinner and funny DVDs last Saturday. And we’ve got a trip to Baguio planned for the last week of January. That’s something I’m really looking forward to, because I miss Baguio. I’ll be bringing Ben along, and this will be his first time there.
Speaking of Ben, thank God for my baby.
